FRAME NR.5 / 1968

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I assume these images were taken around 1968

with my first little Agfa rangefinder camera.

I didn´t get to see frame five back then.

It was the beginning of the roll,

only halfway exposed and out of focus—

it simply hadn´t been printed at the drugstore.

During my college years, there was a moment

when I realized that photographing people

would become my theme.

I was extremely shy then,

and for months I walked the streets

without daring to take photographs of anyone.

Once in a while,

when the impulse was strong enough,

I overcame my inhibitions.

Somewhere along the road

I realized that my images told as much about me

as they did about the reality in front of my camera.

I began to look back into my childhood,

a childhood that was defined by loneliness and neglect,

And there it was, this image,

emerging out of my faded memories:

the puffy face of my mother

and the long days she stayed in bed

without ever getting up.

In the darkness of the nights

we heard her crying and stayed silent.

The kids in the next frame are my sister and her friend.

 

 

What a mixed bag of memories—

family secrets, the resemblance of normality,

moments of blissful oblivion.

 

Published as part of the “Early Works Project”,

curated by Laura Moya & Laura Valenti Jelen.